This Poem Contains the Word ‘Nigger’
So here I stand-still. Building the will to swallow truth served
By the father of fables. He is tiger’s apprentice; a back alley anthropologist who’s called nigger.
He is black, black as hunger. Black as lungs, eyes, skies, the love between the thighs-black as light.
I know the new world prophet. Nigga black as angels. He spins stories in the recording studio of his neighbor’s
Hood life liturgy. The preacher’s beat-blessing: box the lost melodies.
He sings jabali to the ancestor rhythms of mortar and pestle, djembe and water-tells tales of glock wars and worries of fatherhood, because his fairy tales
Were orphans.
The nigger is keeper of myth, peddling preserves of the tar baby and bald ass nansi. Of the nappy headed ho carving tracks in the footsteps of the drinking gourd.
A rabbit ears poet paying rent-to-own in caste-iron system of selling, and being home-celled.
And the last of the ghosts of prose, with flows that spit vicious,
Literature of Fitzgerald’s young money, Thoreau’s moment of clarity, and Baldwin’s America, though dumb-it-downed, a bard under the radar-nigga’s face pearly-white lies pleasure, but his soul hides deeper treasure.
The nigger is not chained by age, but enframed as a page in the books that he secretly reads. But nigga’s voice isn’t there.
So to share his colored wealth, he mixes word:
A pop-a-cap culture chef brewing a recipe for enlightenment.
Stewing, simmering in the night: mint-spiced to make the truth easier to swallow for when we build the courage
To eat.
And speaking of eating…only 3 more days of fasting. Last night was Laylat al-Qadr, the 27th of Ramadan. This night, called the night of decree, night of power, night of destiny, refers to the evening when the prophet Mohammed is believed to have received the Qu’ran. A night of great energy, Muslims dress up and briefly dance through the streets in a beeline for the mosque. There, manyy stay up all night praying, offering, and doing charitible acts. Others visit relatives, revel in the streets and color each other with henna. Though not allowed in the mosque itself, I was privileged enough to see the festival in the medina. The brilliant colors, lights, aromas, sounds and foods of the medina normally do not even compare to the mardi gras festivities of last night. Chrildren and adults alike paraded about in new jilabas, stopping on their way to the mosque to get food, take pictures, and scope members of the opposite sex. Spontaneous altars sprouted everywhere and the air was thick with the fumes of incense. Taken up in the excitement, I sat down at a cafe to practice anthropology. I ordered Cahua (coffee) but declined the 1/4 cup of sugar and heavy cream that is the norm here. Sipping my coffee, I noticed a young couple enjoying what looked to be bread and…could it be? Amlou. I asked the waiter and he confirmed, that yes, my suspicions were correct. Immediately, I ordered a serving and sat, waiting impatiently for my prize. I had been on a quest to find this delicous almond, honey argan oil dip since my arrival. Sweet and nutty, this simple dip may as well be called ambrosia. It has so much complexity from the argan oil, but is not overwhelmed by the burnt-pumpkin seed peanut butter taste of it. As I sat enjoying my first (and eventually second) helping of this simple staple. I had one of those weird contended moments that makes all right with the world. And then the amlou was gone and I returned to feeling like a sock in the underwear drawer.
Amlou:
1 cup almonds, roasted
1/2 cup argan oil
1/4 cup honey
-Grind almonds in food processor until smooth, about 4 minutes. Then, slowly pour in the oil and honey and serve.

